p.s.

I remember now why I always wanted to cancel sleep when I was a kid. If I always felt this way? I would never want to sleep until I just fell over dead or otherwise. I'm awake! And there's so much to learn live know learn! I love people and I hate them, and the same with life. Plants, animals? Love. Love! This life? I bite it, crunch it between my teeth. Brave words, I know, from someone who needs to make big decisions. Let it be, for these days. I am thinking, and I am trying to be who I am. It could be that I can't stand being otherwise when I go back to NY. That's all for now.